corrective action plan....take 1

By the grace of G-d, or some other higher power, I magically lost 1.8 this week and currently top out at 157.6 lbs.

Before I count my blessings, all onehundredfiftyseven of them, I hereby declare that I have a corrective action plan listy in place to avoid another upswing. And here goes:

1. Do not put everyting me see in me mouf, eh?
   
2. I will attempt to lose 5 pounds by the end of this semester (i.e. I am hoping to weigh 152 by 12/12/08)
3. Think BEFORE I eat...Check in with my feelings? am I really hungry? am I bored? am I tired? am I trying to fill an imaginary hole with food?
4. Congratulate myself for NOT eating something, even when I want it (I forgot where I read this but I think it's a good idea)
5. DO NOT STRAY! (This is mental notey to myself. I always bring enough food for my day in my lunch box. A lunch and two small snacks. Always. And when I stray from that is when I get into trouble...food trouble)
6. Plan ahead. Anticipate hiccups (free food or alcohol)
7. Exercise *but don't beat myself up by eating* if I can't make it to the gym. I have several DVD's in my arsenal. I can do 20 minutes of one and get a sticker.
   
8. Ah yes, along with #2, remember to take each day at a time. Small goals work better for me.
   
9. Remind myself very often that no matter what I am still hotter now, at 24, than I was in high school and college.
   
10. Food is for eating. Food is for nourishment. Food is stupid. "NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS BEING SKINNY FEELS."

Time to make potato knishes for my supervisor and the other case managers at internship. And do my bikini body DVD. And maybe get some sleep in there before tomorrow.

madness

I keep on telling my boyfriend that I'm gaining weight on purpose because being fat is warmer in the winter than being skinny is.

But I'm lying.

The ugly and flubbery truth is this: I know I should be eating better and not putting everything I see into my mouth. I know this because I've lost almost a 3rd grader in pounds. I know this because I can whip up quick and healthy meals and control my portions. Lately, I just. can't. help. myself. I am eating and eating and then weirding myself out about it. I deserve a "vacation" from restriction. I have done so well for so long. Eating keeps me awake and energized to face this ridiculous schedule I have.

After a rough week (probably 2-3 since we're REALLY being honest) I am ready to admit I have a "problem."

Food is my drug and I am relapsing.

my best friend had a baby

This was my yesterday evening. My best friend, her husband, baby, sister (+two friends) and birthday girl mother went to the Cheesecake Factory with Adam and myself for din-din. Because I couldn't actually "eat" Evelyn, I decided it would be in my best interest to eat everything in front of me. Including my BANG BANG Chicken & Shrimp, which gave me horrendous gas for the rest of the evening and the most revolting smelling burps you could imagine.

In other news, I failed this week, again. I didn't follow my POINTS, I overate and I barely had time for the gym. Speaking of which, I have an off tangent rant. While I know that it is good to go to the gym and work out, and I feel some "gym guilt" when I don't go if I have extra time, I have decided that I cannot live at my gym. It's just not for me. There is this one girl, with an amazing body, who literally lives at the gym. I admire her body, but I'd personally have a little jiggle here and there and not miss out on some outside life things.

baby it's cold outside...

I skipped class to write a paper for Thursday night. And go grocery shopping.

I still love grocery shopping. I get super excited going up and down the aisles planning out meals. I made it about 2.5 weeks before I went again for a big trip. I ALWAYS wish I had more money to spend and more POINTS to eat. I find new foods that I didn't know existed. Weight Watchers now makes 1 POINT chocolate cookies and I think I died and went to heaven. That's what I'll eat for dessert with a glass of skim milks.

I made a delicious dinner of pico de gallo and fresh spinach sauteed with shrimp over ISRAELI Couscous (which is serious and seriously yummy) and some real 50% less fat bacon bits.

My Sunday was spent helping Adam carry wood he cut down and stack the logs. Big heavy logs. Uphill. Woot woot. My biceps (I have them, didn't you know?) are still a little tender, if you will.

I gained .4 this week. I may have figured out what has caused the recent uppages over the last month. A few weeks ago, I bought a travel coffee mug. This now meant I could drink coffee to go and not just at home. Because I still liked my routine of coffee during breakfast, I have nearly doubled my coffee consumption each day. Double coffee = double coffee mate = POINTS I wasn't counting. This week, I will actually count a POINT for my precious coffee and see how I fare. It's one less thing to eat but I need my coffee fix, especially since I quit the cigarettes.

Thank you and goodnight.

a-friggin-men

Life is funny.

Just when I think I've got it good, and admit it, I consequently cause my OWN drama. Today, I knew I was going to be OK when I stopped myself. I am seriously wondering if I should talk to a doctor about having PMDD.

Not so much POINTS counting this week, but I've been watching what I eat and being smart. I will weigh in this Tuesday to see how I've done. This will gauge whether or not I need to mix things up or keep things up.

Going out tonight. To a bar to meet up with my friend who moved out of town but is back for a one night only. Last night I went to a Japanese Hibachi Steakhouse and ate all my din-din plus some fried ice cream. Mmmm mMMmMm nom nom whatever noise you make when something is great. I spent $54 on the whole meal: miso soup, salad, veggies, fried rice, shrimp appetizer, steak and two glasses of cold lychee sake. Then I got suckered into going to a bar and did that for a little bit.

All of this cold weather is making me a lush again?

darlin' wont you go and cut that hair

i did it! i did it! i had it cut!
i've been humming and hawing and i finally decided to go for it
i feel p r e t t y!
and....now YOU tell me about something you've done recently that is
"well thought out spontaneity"

yummy in pictures

eggplant, onion, zucchini, mushroom, tomato, red pepper
buffalo chicken sausage
Muenster cheese/ hummus/Joseph's oat flax something wrap
finished product

leftovas for lunch tomorrow



no other words needed.

except, thanks for the photo idear TA