Thursday, March 12, 2009

mmmm victory?

If I tracked everything I ate this week, I was going to treat myself to manicure.

If I lost any weight at all, I was going to buy myself a weigh-scale to keep at home.

Guess who is getting new nails
and a new scale?!!!

Down 2.8 lbs this week. Happy at 162, 12 pounds to lose for goal.

+ a job interview on Thursday at an outpatient chemical dependency program as a counselor!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

sham-wow

I have been M.I.A. for quite some time. Apologies to people who actually read this thing.

Needless to say, I have been struggling. With self-esteem, depression, anxiety, blah blah blah. I am tired of stressing. I have climbed back up to 165 lbs. I've gained back 10 lbs of flubber!!!!! I am ashamed and disgusted. I won't go too far with those feelings, but it isn't pleasant knowing that I was so close to my goal and I sabotaged myself. I am trying really really hard to get back into "recovery" mode and now lose the last 15 lbs. I have left to go with Weight Watchers. I am rewarding myself by writing down everything I eat this week and if I do that, I will get a manicure. Eventually, I am going to buy myself a bicycle to go for rides.

There are officially 8 weeks left of graduate school.