Sunday, March 8, 2009

sham-wow

I have been M.I.A. for quite some time. Apologies to people who actually read this thing.

Needless to say, I have been struggling. With self-esteem, depression, anxiety, blah blah blah. I am tired of stressing. I have climbed back up to 165 lbs. I've gained back 10 lbs of flubber!!!!! I am ashamed and disgusted. I won't go too far with those feelings, but it isn't pleasant knowing that I was so close to my goal and I sabotaged myself. I am trying really really hard to get back into "recovery" mode and now lose the last 15 lbs. I have left to go with Weight Watchers. I am rewarding myself by writing down everything I eat this week and if I do that, I will get a manicure. Eventually, I am going to buy myself a bicycle to go for rides.

There are officially 8 weeks left of graduate school.

3 comments:

Shannon said...

I'm loving Weight Watchers! Hope it helps you with the last bit you have left to lose.

http://shansweightlossjourney.blogspot.com/

Meg said...

I'm sorry that you're having such a rough time, Don't give up! You've done wonderful so far. Backsliding can be one of the toughest obstacles to overcome, but I know you can do it. I'm amazed that you can put any energy into fitness while in Grad school!

auntie said...

you are such a determined and goal-oriented person, i know you can and will get back on track! i think it's great that you've "admitted" it to the internet. maybe it will help to know that we're thinking of you and sending supportive vibes your way!!