Sunday, March 8, 2009


I have been M.I.A. for quite some time. Apologies to people who actually read this thing.

Needless to say, I have been struggling. With self-esteem, depression, anxiety, blah blah blah. I am tired of stressing. I have climbed back up to 165 lbs. I've gained back 10 lbs of flubber!!!!! I am ashamed and disgusted. I won't go too far with those feelings, but it isn't pleasant knowing that I was so close to my goal and I sabotaged myself. I am trying really really hard to get back into "recovery" mode and now lose the last 15 lbs. I have left to go with Weight Watchers. I am rewarding myself by writing down everything I eat this week and if I do that, I will get a manicure. Eventually, I am going to buy myself a bicycle to go for rides.

There are officially 8 weeks left of graduate school.


Shannon said...

I'm loving Weight Watchers! Hope it helps you with the last bit you have left to lose.

Meg said...

I'm sorry that you're having such a rough time, Don't give up! You've done wonderful so far. Backsliding can be one of the toughest obstacles to overcome, but I know you can do it. I'm amazed that you can put any energy into fitness while in Grad school!

auntie said...

you are such a determined and goal-oriented person, i know you can and will get back on track! i think it's great that you've "admitted" it to the internet. maybe it will help to know that we're thinking of you and sending supportive vibes your way!!