Monday, May 18, 2009

cause and effect


Life has finally settled down.

I am now an Addiction Counselor at my internship site, they hired me and I started almost two weeks ago. I actually love my job, talking to my patients and helping them find themselves. It is a pretty awesome feeling.

I graduated last Saturday, although I did not attend the ceremony. Instead, I laid on the couch and napped, waking up every now and then to watch a Law & Order re-run. It was blissful. Afterwards, I went a festival we have up here and binge drank with my friends and gorged myself with disgusting-ly delicious Mexican food. Plus tequila, didn't agree with my tummy. Puked. Went on drinking. Sunday, Mother's day, was also a food festival.

Like I (and maybe you) have said, "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!" Monday I dragged my ass (and my mom's ass, because she was in town) to Weight Watchers and climbed on the scale after almost two months absence. I bought my mom her initial month's membership for Mother's day. Even feeling good about that did not prepare me.

Needless to say, I was not excited when I found out I weighed 167.8 pounds. I have gained back 12 pounds, because: I got cocky, I can't stop eating when food is in front of me, I don't keep track of my food intake, I don't exercise regularly, I am a self-saboteur.

I hummed and hawed all week, got one day in of exercise and I lost 1.8 pounds this week. It's not enough.

5 comments:

Tricia said...

Are you not exercising because you hate it but find it a necessary evil? Cause if you are, may I suggest signing up for a gym that offers classes free to members and trying new stuff?

And if your weight is going down when you get back on track, that's the important thing.

Rockin Austin said...

I think the most important step was saying "enough is enough" and stopping yourself. The road back (and back, and back) sucks, but you're back on it. And 1.8 is pretty darn good. I've been great with my food and exericse and haven't moved a pound in 2 months now.

auntie said...

i'd say 1.8 pounds is a pretty good start!

Miz said...

checking on you...1.8 is a great start, Woman.

how are you now? doing? work? working out? all that!

Meg said...

It may not be enough, but it's a start, right? Just keep it up, keep yourself moving, and the ball will start rolling along again!