Monday, February 22, 2010

sweet surrender

This weekend I thought about things.

For starters, how bored I am with my current exercise routine which is making me loathe working out. I'd rather lay on the couch and sleep then go to the gym some days. This could also be accounted for by stress and depression? Anywho, I went to the gym as much as I could this week and that's what counts. Plus, Adam (my boyfriend) bought me a pair of Sketchers Shape-Ups last night and I'm planning on taking them for a stroll this afternoon to AVOID the gymnasium.

I tried buying new foods this week, to combat Kitchen Boredom. I got some Nova Scotia lox, WW 1 POINT cream cheese, 97% Fat Free Hot Dogs, Vanilla soy milk, whole wheat cinnamon raisin bread and other things to branch out a bit. Mind you, I ate out on Thursday night and Friday for lunch, as well as Saturday.

So, what is different about this week than other weeks? I surrendered. I officially gave up on trying to lose weight and really just focused on making the best choices possible. Plus I caved and bought two pairs of pants for work in a 12, instead of pretending I'm still a straight size 10 like I was a year and a half ago. I got tired of looking like a sausage. So I said to myself "Self, what are you really trying to do? Body is not going to lose the weight as quickly as last time and Body is comfortable here. Mind is looking for immediate results instead of the bigger picture, which is lifelong health." I surrender. White flag. I'm not going to fight mother nature or my metabolism. I've been doing this 3 years and if I have to do it 3 more, I will.

Mind + body = self.
Self lost 4 pounds this week.

2 comments:

Me said...

Go self!
I don't know about the word 'surrender' really. It sounds so negative and what you are doing is not negative at all! It's more like changing your priorities or changing your mind set, whatever you want to call it.
Good thinking.

DarrenGCoomes said...

Actions speak louder than words. ........................................