lazy hazy

Where did my mojo go?

I am so tired all of the time. No energy to do much lately. Last night I spoke with my mom around 7:30 PM and had the following conversation:

Me: Mom, I'm sleepy. Call me at in half hour at like 8 PM and say 'get to the gym fat ass.'
Mom: I will not call you a fat ass.
Me: Please, tell me to wake my fat ass up and get working.
Mom: I will call you at 8 but I will not call you fat.
Me: FINE. I love you. Bye.

So we hang up and I pass out. I wake up on my couch at around 9 PM, face stuck to pillow in a puddle of drool. The weather is getting nice, which is a trigger for me to not want to cook, to want to drink beer and eat fried food.

I am motivated to eat. I am motivated to sleep. NO issues there. I am struggling with motivation to sweat? I've stopped putting pressure on myself to exercise everyday and am working on just working out at least 3x's week. I did make it to the gym today, which is positive. But I ate lunch out and had a mini work party.

I am thinking about enlisting my boyfriend for help, as he is my biggest support and chief enabler.

Ugghhhhh, I want my ENERGY back!!!!

motivating idea

Professionally, I am awesome. I have come a long way in my career and plan to grow. Weight loss wise, I am a slacker. So, based on a counseling therapeutic technique I have a little way of motivating myself.

I take ALL of my positive attributes in one area of my life and try to use them in the other.

Work strengths that SHOULD be transferred to weight loss/maintenance:
~organized~ diligent~ great time management skills~ strong documentation skills~ caring ~ focused ~ dedicated~ competitive ~ goal oriented ~ self starter ~ independent~ good attitude ~ flexible ~ responsible~ open minded~ demands excellence from self ~ honest~

So from this list, I am hoping to keep working on myself!

What areas of life do you kick ass in and how can you motivate yourself to put the focus on your health & well being?

ugh.

why does everyone want to celebrate my accomplishments with food? and alcohol?
the binges don't feel good.
no one else seems to be concerned with their weight or mine.
i feel so frustrated.