"weigh" to go!

Yesterday, I did not weigh in.
I spent the afternoon after work at the Verizon store, because I lost my cell phone and needed a replacement immediately. Plus, my eyes have black and red bags underneath them as an adverse reaction to my antibiotics. Today, I looked like a zombie woman in dress clothes. Dress clothes in which I am officially 1.2 pounds less than last Monday, making me:
158.2 lbs
and relieved that I have about 10 pounds left to lose.
and about 3.2 pounds until tattoo time.

Tonight, I am celebrating weight loss with Mushroom & Herb Couscous, Garlic Chipolte Salmon and a big salad for dinner. I went to the gym after weigh in (I should start staying for meetings) and worked out a little bit, but nothing major.

I found my cell this morning when my wake up alarm went off....in a shoe, in my closet.

Oh...and here is my list of non-148 lbs goals that I decided to think about after reading MizFit. I am SOOOO darn focused on reaching that number, that I have forgotten OTHER goals to strive for on my journey. So here they is, in no particular order:

1. gradually find the time (and energy) to stay on a cardio machine for an hour
2. attempt to lose more inches all over the body, as this has hit plateau
3. in addition to #2, maybe even try to get into the single digits of clothing! (i'm a 10-12 right now and it would feel AMAZING to get into an 8...haven't been there since 7th grade)
4. switch to Core on Weight Watchers for at least 1 week (more about this for next post)
5. hit 155 and get that stupid tattoo i've been talking about forever
6. ______________________________ i'll figure this one out later.
   

misssss new booty?!

Over my strep throat officially and back in the gym as of yesterday.

At the group home for pregnant teens that I work in part time, I have a rule. The girls are allowed to complain, but only if they say something positive after their complaint. So...they cannot bitch and moan unless they can make a positive comment afterwards. I am trying to teach them that good karma and positive thinking will bring them better things then being negative nancies all of the time. I even made a sign on the office door. And when they come to me to talk about why they hate being here, hate another girl etc I interject with a "BUT!" and they laugh, and say "But I'm pretty" or "But I am going to be out of here once I have my baby" and they can't be angry anymore.

While I was elliptical-ing, I was reading in a magazine about how celebs lose the "baby weight" or have a "bikni body." Really?! COMPLETELY unrealistic. I was getting cranky at the thought that I could be super skinny and gorgeous if I had millions of dollars to spend on trainers, nutritionists and/or nannies to take care of my kid while I worked out for 2 hours a day.

I make way less than $30 grand a year, work 2 jobs and will be returning to grad school in a month or so. Is this why my progress is going so slow!??! BUT instead of complaining, I will say that I am very proud that I've lost all of this weight and have been keeping it OFF for over a year and a half now.

Today.... I did 45 mins on the elliptical. Hope weigh in tomorrow works out for me!!!

Starting Measurements vs. Current Measurements

Arms - 12" / 11.5"

Legs- 24"/ 21.5"

Waist- 38"/ 32.5"

Hips - 42"/38"

i wish

I wish I looked like Mariska Hargitay.

I wish I didn't have strep throat.

I wished I could have gone to the gym today.

two point six

Lost 2.6 during a holiday weekend. Back down to a nice and ripe 159.4 lbs of woman. This week, I am going to try doing strictly cardio to burn burn burn fats. I've been doing a teensy bit of research on my saggyish skin problem and I was kind of surprised to learn that there may be some resistant fat as the cause of the looseness. So I just have to keep chugging along to my goal weight and beyond and continue moving, no matter what. It also doesn't help that I was overweight for so many years.

RIP

It's amazing how much adrenaline you can find in your body at the gym after breaking up with your boyfriend. And how not hungry you feel, even after one of the more intense workouts you've completed in a long time. I feel numb and powerful. Paradoxical, I know, but still.

toughen up girl

Day # 3 of serious re -commitment to 22 POINTS a day.

The hunger pains throb in my belly and I am now aware of how badly I had been cheating for the last few weeks. Again, I got cocky and didn't do my job of trying hard enough. Now I feel like a drug addict detoxing off of some chemical madness. I have sweats, I'm irritable, lethargic and all over cranky. Wowsa. It don't feel pretty. I *still* went to the gym and lifted some weights and did 15 minutes on the elliptical despite feeling brutal.

In other news, I have another bag of clothing to get rid of. "Fat clothes," if you will. I am giving this large bag of clothing to my place of employment, to our Interview Outfitters program. By donating my nice fat clothes, I am helping someone get some pieces worthy of an interview or even just some free clothing. Last time I lost weight (2005-2006) I kept all of my fat clothes. Then I was able to wear them again. And promptly grew out of them into a size 14 when I gained it all back. I think I was secretly holding on to these clothes in case I got fat again. No more. I won't allow it. I REFUSE to increase a pants size if I have to go out and buy new ones. Especially if I'm going to be unemployed come September, when internship and full time grad school classes will rule my life. I am also putting myself on a $50 a week food budget. No more than that EVER.

Next Monday, July 7th will be weigh in day and every Monday thereafter. This will ensure behaving during the weekend, as I was very successful at Monday weigh ins last year.

Food log:
2 Whole Grain Waffles (3 pts)
1 c skim milk (2 pts)
1 shmear of nutella (1 pt?)
1 Kozy Shack Apple Strudel Snack cup (1 pt)
1 fiber one bar (2 pts)
1/2 c. rice (2 pts)
curried veggies (1 pt?)
2 pieces of chicken (5 pts)
4 oz of mahi mahi (2 pts)
1 c shrimp (2pts)
veggies!
Water water water and...water

baby bjorns are awesome

Today's food log:
1 c Honey Nut Cheerios (2 pts)
1 c skim milk (2 pts)
1 WW Raspberry White Chocolate yogurt (1 pt)
1 c whole wheat pasta (3 pts)
1/2 c shrimp (1 pt)
+ asparagus, onions, peppers,
1 Chocolate fiber one bar (2 pts)
1 tiny nothing brownie (1 pt!?)
2 panko breaded chicken cutlets (5-6 pts)
1 c brown rice (4 pts)
curry Indian veggies (1-2 pts?)
water water water

And I babysat for Lili. So as today's exercise, I strapped Miss Thang into the Baby Bjorn and we walked for about 40 minutes. NO ONE HONKED AT ME! But walking was fun with 13 extra pounds of weight. I wonder if this is how it will be when I get pregnant?

Me & Lili on a stroll around the neighborhood