Sunday, October 17, 2010

there is a crack in everything

I'm jiggly.

I stood naked in front of the mirror and I even feel the jiggles all over my body when I walk. In clothes, I look fine. In the nude, not so much. Something beautiful in being vulnerable. If I were a porn star or a bikini model this would be an issue. Lucky for me, I'm a counselor.

Last week I lost 1.6 more pounds bringing me to a loss of 5 in the last two weeks. This week, I was busy busy busy socializing. No time for exercise, even with the best of intentions waking up at 6 AM to try to get an exercise video in...I still decided to roll over and get more sleep. The scale this morning said I was back up a pound or two but I figure if I eat a lot of lettuce and drink a lot of water I will pee this out and be OK for weigh in tomorrow.

HOWEVER, add my mother to the mix. She was up two weeks ago and wanted to go out to eat very badly. She will be up in a little while again to help me pack and I know she will want to go to a restaurant. Last time I had to put my foot down hard, because I kind of wanted to go out too. She started to moan about how hungry she was so I pulled out the Fiber 1 bar I keep in my purse to shut her up. It worked. Today I will coax her to let me cook again for her. I hope she buys it. My waistline is depending on this. Good thing I went to the gym already....

Also to be noted: next weekend I move in with my fiancee. He's already grouching about the fact that I don't cook fattening enough for him and he said "You know there's going to be a lot more junk food in our apartment." I responded "You know there's going to be a lot more vegetables too." But folks, I'm really worried. I won't have a gym membership and possibly no more Exercise-On-Demand digital cable. He said he'll do P90X with me, but he has the follow through of a two year old sometimes...

Who unintentionally sabotages you in your weightloss/healthy habits? And how do you handle it?

2 comments:

www.fitisthenewblack.com said...

Temptation is tough, but at the end of the day when you indulge you have to hold yourself accountable b/c you made the decision to go against your plan. Theres this great quote and its something along the lines of regret is more painful than the struggle, so it sucks to not cheat, but in the long run the regret of not achieving your goals is worse than the struggle of not eating the chips, or struggling w. motivation to do your workouts. I wouldn't rely on doing the program with anyone whether its P90X or anything, make a commitment to yourself and accept no excuses!

Once Thoughts said...

My husband is awful. He doesn't mean to be discouraging, I know. He feels like if I have to wake up in the morning he does too. He feels like I am critisizing my weight or the way I look when really I just want to be healthier/fitter... a more responsible person. And he can't see that, partially because he's heavy and I'm not. I am one of those people that eat and not gain weight. But that doesn't mean that I like being unhealthy. I'm tired all the time and miss being active but he either takes it personally or as if I am trying to down on myself/have low self esteem. Thanks for the rant ;)