quick hurry

Just wanted to get this in before I went to work.

Waist: 35
Hips: 41
Arms: 12
Legs: 23
Current Weight: 184 (this was taken Tuesday afternoon on Amy's scale)

I realize that I didn't post this weekend, BUT, I also didn't have internet access.

Hooray! Christmas didn't do as much damage as I had anticipated. I still ate my fair share though ;-)




wow. now that's progress.

(pic of me getting kicked in the crotch by a 5 year old after a rugby game)

motivation

Ever feel unmotivated and then feel guilty about not feeling motivated?

Today, I'm feeling completely unmotivated. And I feel like I should move around or do something because I need to release energy. Should go to the gym, because I want another sticker on my calendar. Not interested since I'm feeling tired from lack of sleep finally catching up to me. Should go to the gym because I'm going to see Felipe in 9 or 16 more days. Not really interested because it's cold outside, and I don't want to walk to the gym room here. Should go to the gym because I'm starting to see result, and why not maintain/work harder and look better. Not so interested, since I'm seeing results already and why do more work than I have to?

To go or not to go? I guess the compromise would be to go, but not work out so hard? Or to just go for a walk outside?

Perhaps do my Pilates tape and watch them do abs, buns and thighs while I eat some pizza?

happy sunday, fuckers

Greetings on this lovely Sunday afternoon! I've officially done nothing today besides eat breakfast, go to the gym, talk on the phone a few times with my boyfriend and watch HBO on demand. Basically, this Sunday has been a worthless one. I'm feeling like I should be more productive. I'm also craving pasta. And tomato sauce. MmmMmm. I think I'll be heading over to the kitchen soon as I'm done updating you on my current status.

Arms: 12"
Thighs: 24"
Hips: 42"
Waist: 36" (1 more gone! I'm starting to look like a woman again, and not an amorphus blob thing)

annnddddd....still maxing out at 185 lbs. Which is fine by me. Means I haven't gained anything since Tuesday of last week. My co-workers are noticing the loss in my face the most. I'm noticing that my pants are starting to fit again. ha. ha.

It probably would have been more of a loss, except I drank some "holiday" punch last night at the pajama party we went to. And since my appetite has begun to return, I spent a large portion of the evening snacking on tortilla chips and humus. Kristen and I kept taking turns going up to the table. Then I would sit, and since I'm beginning to think I really have a problem with restless leg syndrome, I just sat and shook my legs all night. I get one to stop and the other one goes. If I try to cross my legs, my foot shakes. As weird as this may seem, I guess it's burning calories. And that's never an issue in my book.

At the gym in my apartment complex, I've been doing 40 mins/2 miles (whichever comes first) just fast paced walking on the old treadmill. I do the first 20 minutes with 3 lbs weights just going up and down with them, and then working on triceps as well. I also am working on the ab machine. Since my legs are already shapely, I'm just walking to keep the muscle tone. I still wish I had my rugby legs. They were friggin' diesel. No cellulite anywhere. For now I'm really just targeting my abs and arms, hoping to build the muscle underneath so that when the fat goes away, all that's left is toned perfection. (Gawd that sounded cheesey!?!?!)

And rightfully so. I just got back my final grade from my other class. I currently have a 4.0 in grad school (A+ in theories, A in research). I'm really proud of myself. I actually had to work for those grades. And now? Now I'm going to celebrate with a bowl of whole wheat pasta and red sauce. Perhaps I'll throw in a piece of grilled chicken. Protein is brain food, you know?

(the good old days, when pizza ALWAYS came after beer)

another one bites the dust

I hate to keep posting about my oh-so-rapid weight loss but.... I can't help it. Can you blame me?????

185 lbs.

by the time I get to see my boyfriend I'm going to be... tiny.

#3...call me houdini b/c i'm disappearing

As I begin this entry, I'd like to share something that will warm your heart. I know it made mine a little toasty, and I'm as mean as the grinch.

A friend of mine from college, who I had lost touch with (she got MARRIED and made twin BABIES!) IM'd me yesterday. In a quick update, she then explained that she happened across this blogger and felt inspired to lose weight herself. ME *inspire* someone? It seems surreal to me that people actually read this thing, much less have it inspire them. So thank you, friend who shall remain nameless.

Aside from this, there are still two of my best friends who are constantly supporting me in the battle of the bulge.

But let's get down to biznassssssss

Arms: 12"

Legs: 24"

Waist: 37" (I LOST AN INCH! I LOST AN INCH!)

Hips: 42" still

and.....

Current weight: 186 lbs.

Bringing total weight LOST to 5

So..... I lost ANOTHER pound and an inch off the old waist. There weren't really any obstacles for weight loss this week, with the exception of drinking beer on Friday and Saturday nights. Today I got to put a sticker on my calendar, as I went to the gym. I've made a little calendar and on weigh-in days I write down what I weigh (obviously) and I put a heart sticker on the days I go to the gym. This is a real visual aid for me. In fact, the whole sticker thing is how I got potty trained. Everytime I went in the toilet, I put a sticker on the wall. Positive reinforcement? It still works, no matter how old you are.

Good thing I wasted all that money on a bachelor's degree in Psychology.

special friday update

So, i'm at work today and i am in the bathroom of the building next to mine (it's the administrative building). There's a scale in that bathroom, the old doctor kind, with the sliding weight part. Well, anyways, after I pee, I take off my shoes and I hop on it and....

187 lbs.

That means I lost 3, yes, count them, 3 whole pounds since Monday morning. I believe my measurements are still the same, and I'm not technically counting them until Sunday/Monday.

yeah....

#2

I finally was able to get to my password! I was entering the wrong user name, and my password was all funky, and well...here I am.

Weight: 190
legs: 24"
arms: 12"
waist: 38"
hips: 42"

I lost a whole g-damned pound! I'm actually pretty happy, considering how rough of a week it was. I didn't gain! I didn't stay the same! These two term papers are ruining my life. Good thing I'm done TOMORROW!!!! I can begin exercising a lot again and be able to clean my room and go food shopping. For vegetables.

Obstacles: Wednesday, there was a picnic type thing for work and I tried really hard NOT to eat all the bad stuff. In doing so, I ate 3 plates of salad to fill up on lettuce. Then I ate chocolate cake and meat lasagne. Saturday night I drank some beer, but what got me was finding my way to the food table at my friend Michelle's house. I basically stood there with my two girlfriends (who are both skinny mind you) and I filled up on cocktail weenies, fritos with mustard and chocolate jumble cookies. Not exactly the best idea. I must have looked like a fat freak of nature, just standing there and stuffing my face. Didn't even take my jacket off. wow.

#1

If you're reading this, then you already know...

I've decided to take my weight loss journey, online, for public scrutiny.

You might be one of the skeptics, you might be someone who is stalking me, or hopefully, you are one of my friends, trying to be a supportive force to me. Send me a comment or don't. Either way, I'm doing this for me. I'm feeling like if I post my progress online, I can't cheat and I'll have it documented. (like i really care what YOU think?)

Last year at this time, I was about 165-170 lbs (after losing 25 lbs) and my size 10's were fitting fiiiiine. Now I'm 191 pounds of pure woman. So I'm back in full force, trying to regain control of my body and my appetite. I've got an amazing boyfriend to be hot for, and although it seems a little bit stupid, I actually WANT to look good for him, even though I know he already loves me as is.

After racking my brain for possible explanations for this weight gain (not EXCUSES) I've realized this: If I am not constantly vigilant of my portion sizes or excersizing on a regular basis I WILL BE FAT. I don't want to be FAT. I want to look good naked!

So here are my measurements...

Arms (upper)- 12"

Legs (big, meaty thigh)- 24"

Waist (didn't know I had one)- 38"

Hips (shakira, shakira MY HIPS DON'T LIE!)- 42"

Neck- 13" (something i read somewhere said to measure it)

...and once again, I weigh 191 pounds.

As I embark on this journey, I will update weekly with my weight and measurents. Expect these on Sunday/Monday. I might even share some challenges, funny anecdotes. But whether I like it or not, if I know people are reading, I'm going to have to update it honestly.

My ultimate goal is to lose 10% of my current weight, at least19 pounds and be a happy, healthy

170 lbs.

here goes nothing....