the happiest birthday gift

The best gift I have received thus far, was weighing 161.8 lbs on the scale this morning at WW.

Cumulative Statistics:
Lost: 31.2
To go: 13.8
Inches: 16" all ova (13" on hips & waist combined)

happy birthday to me.

a little thank you

"The #1 rule of losing weight: Calories burned must exceed calories taken in.

Think about it this way: It is easier to eat more calories than it is to burn off those calories with exercise. For example, a 30-minute walk can burn around 200 calories (depending on your weight and pace). But you can quickly cancel out those 200 calories afterwards by munching down 12 Ritz crackers — in less time than it takes to put on your running shoes."

Yahoo! Health

Thank you for reminding me of how challenging and at the same time pointless it feels to try to exercise to be healthy/skinny. Thanks so much.

my arsenal is growing...

Here are the DVD's I use to get sexy-like:



This last one (Bikini Body) is a kicker. I bought it last night for $9.99 at the supermarket for shits and giggles. I literally just did it. And I think it might be my new secret weapon. I was only a little discouraged by the gorgeous women dancing around in it. Although I would highly recommend this DVD for men to watch (not to do) as the women are hot and sweaty and dance provocatively. It's a win-win for everyone.

Maintained at 162.4 this week. Very happy.
Date night with my boyfriend, looking forward to enjoying the 1 night I'm allowed to eat like a normal human being ;-)

"nothing tastes as good as being skinny feels. "

I have been RAVENOUS this past week, not so sure why. So hungry it hurts, all day. Then I get home from work and I'm not interested in eating. But I eat. Healthy-ish.

Although I don't eat fast food, I wanted to share how good I was tonight at dinner and how it compares to what I could have/wanted to eat all day. Ready?

Instead of:

• McDonald's medium fries= 8
• McDonald's double cheeseburger=11
• Medium regular soda= 6
• TOTAL POINTS: 25 (I only get 22-23 per day)

I had:

• Turkey Burger (99% fat free meats)= 5
• French fries (15, baked)= 4
• 1 Slice Alpine Lace Light Swiss cheese= 1
• WW roll=2
• Green & wax beans w/ baby carrots in "I can't believe it's not butter" and garlic= 1
• TOTAL POINTS: 13

So I ate a point or two over for the day, but I also went to the gym this evening after work. And lifted. I've also been taking self-timer shots of myself in a sports bra & shorts to show you. But I'm nervous. So you can't see yet.


But you can see this one---->

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PMS + smoking cessation (yes, again) = poor adam

I've been to the gym for the last 2 days in a row, for serious cardio on the treadmill. I've also been mixing in heavy lifting of boxes up & down steps, in & out of my car from this apartment to the new one. In addition to gym time and a brief stint as a mover, I've done some housework. Vacuuming and taking 10 trips from the bed to the dresser and closet to put away laundry, while I dance around, is good exercise for me too.

I feel guilty for not weighing in this week. I've also taken to eating a snack in the middle of the night again. Yes folks, I've been hiding a secret from you. I have a little issue with nighttime eating, mostly because I wake up to pee so damn much. I usually only have a bite or a handful of something out of a bag. Last night, I actually made myself a mug of cereal and milk. Hmmmmm.

I'm fully awake when this happens, so I know it's not a sleep disorder. I DO count whatever I've consumed towards my POINTS for the next day. Let's blame this on not-smoking and being anxious/excited/having feelings. Then let's never talk about it again...

"There is no love sincerer, than the love of food."

I had a good week personally, but a bad week diet wise. Someone asked me this week, why I pay to lose weight. The answer my dears is very simple. If I dieted on my own, I would not be successful. And if I were to be successful, I wouldn't be nearly as much so, if I didn't do Weight Watchers. I plan on doing WW for the rest of my life. Once I get to goal, it will be free.

In other news, exercise is becoming a chore that it difficult to accomplish on limited time. I have muscles, I have some definition. I NEED to get more cardio into my routine but have no way to really do this effectively. To get results from the cardio, I would need to put in at least 30-50 mins to get significant ACTIVITY POINTS from WW. Right now I'm doing my Pilates/Tae-Bo DVD's to at least say I'm exercising. Until the weather gets nicer, and I can walk/run outside, it is difficult to get real movement in. It's so cold outside and I'm exhausted when I come home. When I try to wake up early to work out, I am still sleepy and can't motivate myself. Once I figure out how to beat this issue, I will update you.

Also- my body image is still hard wired to feel imperfect. I was talking today with my co-worker who also does WW and I told her how I would be nervous to wear a two-piece in public, despite the fact that I've lost weight. I then pulled up my shirt, to show her how there is some "loose-nessiness" on my belly. I proceeded to walk around her office showing how my belly jiggles, even though I have the very slightest of beginnings to defined abs. (awkward?) She told me if overweight women, and women who have post-pregnancy stretch marks can wear a bikini then I should too. I then came to the conclusion that no one is really staring at my imperfections like I am and that I need to get over this.

Still debating whether or not I weigh in tomorrow, after a fattening week overall.

***UPDATE 10:30 PM*** I am officially a size B in pantyhose! Weird to mention, I know, but it felt good when I bought tights, to not be a Q (I say Q for Queen Sized)

Oh and I'm totally not weighing in tomorrow. I need a vacation from dieting this week.

failure

i have officially failed this weekend.
please look forward to the weight update as a gain.

babies, babies everywheres!

Lost .2 of a pound yesterday, meaning I'm still 162 pounds, which is awesome. I'm really happy that I had 3 weeks of L O S S and not bouncing up/down/all around. I weigh 162.4 and that's fiiiiiiine with me.

In other news, today I have my friend Sally's baby shower ( I seriously can't wait until the day I get presents for being knocked up) I'm anticipating food to be at said event. I am slightly nervous to go to said event, because I know I will eat food. If I eat too much food, I will get fat again. I don't want to be fat ever again (unless we're at a party for me being preggggo)

Yesterday, I indulged in a Dunkin Donuts Bagel (with only half the container of cream cheese, which I had asked for separately and shmeared across my bagel while simultaneously driving to work) and last night my friend Laurie Ann and I went to Bombers for dinner. Bombers is not healthy. At all. Soooooo I'm going to try to remember that I want to be making HEALTHY choices today and not overeating.

Wish me luck!

never ever

Summer of 2006...

I found this beauty on my friend's facebook. I can't believe she is posting fat baby pictures of me. If I didn't like her, I would strangle her. To the death.

I weigh in tomorrow morning. Not sure how the week went. I think I did well, but I didn't get to exercise and I was kind of bad on Stupidbowl Sunday.

However, I have one thing in my favor. My co-worker Lisa. When Lisa (who is also doing WW) loses weight, I end up losing weight. This week she was down a pound. If this is more than a coincidence, that means that I will lighter tomorrow morning. I am trying to be optimistic.

My weight is about the only thing I am optimistic about. And my new apartment in Cohoes. I still hate my job. I am despising grad school , not so much for the learning and assignments but for the sheer inconveniences of dreaded internship. I realize I will never be happy with what I've got and will always worry about what's going to happen next. Ahh, this soo too shall pass. I just can't wait until everything settles down...

a great weight update

The dreaded plateau is looking to be on the decline....
As of 7:30 AM this morning, the scale at Weight Watchers said:

162.6 lbs.

Put THAT on a bun and eat it.

(Although I am EXTREMELY pleased by weighing almost 31 pounds less than I was when I started, I am not celebrating just yet. I still have 2.6 pounds to lose until I reach my goal of 160 OR BUST, and 14 more to lose before I'm done. And I was supposed to be 160 by now, but I am certainly excited to be the lowest I've weighed since high school.)

Happy weekend everybody!