Wednesday, January 21, 2009

What is "on track"?

I am tired and out of shape. No time to work out with all of the business around moving, learning, earning and interning. I am still the health guru at work and I am still trying my darndest to stay on track. But what exactly is on track?

Everybody views their health and fitness differently. I read about all of you and I'm jealous because that area has taken a backseat as of late. I just can't get myself back into the swing of things, when I was doing really well with balancing everything and doing it with a smile.

My super heroine alter ego FGF eats within her Weight Watchers POINTS! each day, splurges when she can and goes to the gym on a regular basis. She gets enough sleep, drinks lots of water and has a weekly manicure. She is strong and beautiful and healthy. She can juggle work/school/work/internship/social life and a boyfriend. She can't exactly leap tall buildings in a single bound but she can walk up a flight of stairs without being out of breath.

Jillian on the other hand is suffering today. Her nightmare apartment situation is almost over but she was referred to as "Judge Judy" in a very nasty e-mail from the old property manager when she mentioned her concern about being called a whiney tenant. She has been eating other people's cooking (read: Adam's mom) all week because she has no time or energy to fend for herself after working or interning a full day. She hasn't been to the gym since 1/2/09. Her only exercise has been moving boxes of stuff . She is feeling her midsection go soft and her thighs a little jiggly. She has started smoking Marb Lights again to ease the anxiety. She hasn't had a night of sleep without the aid of a OTC sleeping pill.

Jillian could use a serious glass of wine and a Xanax or two.

FGF is inside, screaming to be let out, lit up and unleashed. FGF is seriously hoping Jillian gets over this slump and starts taking care of business again soon.

So I guess my question for today is: how do you re-find and let out your inner super hero/ine?


tokaiangel said...

Wanna split that Xanax with me?

I'm going through something eerily similar at the moment. I think it must be because we're so GOOD at doing well, and it feels so GREAT, that when we start to slip a little bit, even for the most understandable reasons, we beat ourselves up about it.

Don't. I'm pretty sure you have enough to deal with already without heaping a ton of guilt on top. Sometimes life gets in the way. We'll get back to it. Baby steps.

TA x

kristen said...

First of all, you deserve all the credit in the world for balancing work/school/internship/social life/boyfriend/apartment drama. Last semester I took a grad course for the first time, in addition to my full time job, and it went horribly. I just can't do it and keep my sanity. You're amazing for being able to handle all that you are.

Secondly, looking at the big picture when you're off track can be discouraging. You have so much on your plate right now, it's only natural that some areas of your life will go on the back burner to compensate for what you're dealing with now.

What if you picked one small goal to add back into your routine at a time, like incorporating more fruits or veggies into your daily food, or drinking more water. After a week or two, it'll become routine again and then you can add another small goal, etc, etc.

I don't think FGF and Jillian are two different people at all. Every superheroine has her kryptonite. And every superheroine overcomes it.

Tricia said...

I honestly think that you need to cut yourself some slack. I don't know anyone who's a full-time grad student and works half as much as you do.

And as for how I re-motivate myself, it's really cheesy, but I watch Kill Bill, Tomb Raider, or any of the Rocky movies (although I'm partial to III and IV) with a glass of wine (pinot noir has the highest amount of antioxidants, but even white has some health benefits) to keep my awareness of my squishy bits to a minimum.

auntie said...

I'm so with you on being off track! I feel like everything in my world is off track right now - food, money, work, sleep - you name it. I'm trying really hard to just focus on one thing at a time, but my brain doesn't really work that way, so it's an uphill battle.

Just know that you're not alone! I've pretty much written January off as a washout, so I'm hoping for better things in February!!

fattygetsfit said...

TA- it's funny that we often have similar ups & downs? it's a trend i think. I would share a few Xannies with you, if they weren't illegal to mail across the pond

Kristen-thanks for the encouragement. i like the kryptonite analogy a lot, it helped me re-think some stuff

Tricia- I am soooo going out to buy Kill Bill tomorrow and watching it.... with a glass of wine

Auntie-Today was horrible for me to, so I am deciding that January will be written off for me as well

Yeah. Positive today was that I got approval for my project!!! I will be stalking you all pretty soon to discuss it further

Meg said...

I'm struggling through the same thing myself right now. Trying to keep myself "on track", and all the while feeling like I'm not getting anywhere. I'm trying a new approach starting next week. I'm going to start taking new and challenging classes at the gym. Things that make me *feel* like a superhero afterward. Spinning, Boxing, Belly dancing!

As far as your situation goes, it sounds to me like you're super heroine enough just for juggling all that stuff!


MizFit said...

checking in on you.
and mulling the fact that sometimes, for me, the innersuperwoman needs a freakin vay cay.

hows yours doing??