Wednesday, July 16, 2008

running out of underwears

Seriously, I haven't done laundry in about 3 weeks and I only have the "b" squad underwears left (that pile is also shrinking). You know the b-squad...the stringy thongs, oddly shaped, ruffled weirdo unders you wear on special occasions. Yeah. Enough about that.

Today was an OK day for eating and working out. I made it to the gym after work and hopped on the elliptical machine for a solid half an hour. I was singing along to my I-pod shuffle and secretly comparing my body to the women around me. EEks. Why do we do that???!! I know I'm not the only woman who checks out other women to compare and contrast.

I was mostly jealous of the tiny girl running on the treadmill. She was about 5'0" with toned arms. Her legs were muscular and she had a runner's booty. Mind you, I'm 5'5" and big boned (for real!!!!) ; my arms are strong but kind of flabby and my butt has all but disappeared since I've lost the 35 lbs. I will never be anyone else but myself.

"The easiest thing to be in the world is you. The most difficult thing to be is what other people want you to be. Don't let them put you in that position."-Leo Buscaglia

I love Leo Buscaglia. And since the only people who read this are either my roommates/friends from college, one of my best friend's mothers, one of my best friend's older sisters, old friends from high school and
cheerleading strangers from a far, I suggest you ALL look at Leo Buscaglia quotes. The man is wacked out but very inspirational.'s time for studying for my CPCE Exam which isn't until September. By May 2009 this will pay off, when I'm a Mental Health Counselor for real.


MizFit said...

life is funny.

runnegurl? she mightcould have been jealous of you.

you never know.


Ashley N said...

Holy Moly, I just wasted an entire day at work reading your archives. I can so relate to you...I'm about 5'6", and currently weighing in at 185ish. I SO face the same struggles...good during the week, blowing it on the weekend. You've motivated/inspired me to get back on the wagon, and really watch what I'm eating, and re-commit to exercise. I haven't been below 180 in two years...I did have a baby a little over two years ago, but I figure that excuse has run out. Anyway, thanks for your honesty, and I'll now be checking your blog regularly. Good luck...I know you'll get there. If nothing else, be PROUD of yourself not only for how far you've come, but how LONG you've stayed committed ot took me a whole damn day to read over nearly two years of your life. (Found you from Fitarella)

Jillian said...

thanks for the support!